Life is a waiting game

you know the feeling when you did something wrong then you wonder how you did it? i screwed up something that was supposed to be good. and i’m clueless how i even started to mess it up..

sh*t happens right? but actually we make sh*t happen. or at least invite it in.. so who’s to be blamed in the end? no one but yourself. and you feel stupid for letting it out, feel ashamed and afraid of the people you’ve offended. you could just run away or hide yourself but when sh*t does happen, you go ahead and clean it up…

i’m sorry aron.  please let me clean my sh*t.. don’t just leave it hanging. it hurts.

(and i’m sorry for not using a better metaphor..  i really can’t think straight. i hate myself for hurting you, i hate that i hadn’t been honest with you, i hate that this all went out without warning, and i hate that we can’t even talk about it.)

please talk to me when you’re ready.

I’m sorry.

and iloveyou.

it’s late and i’m feeling so tired having trouble sleeping
this constant compromise, between thinking and breathing

could it be I’m suffering, because I’ll never give in
wont say that I’m falling in love
(please Please) Tell me I dont seem myself,
couldn’t I blame something else,
dont say I’m falling in love

some kind of therapy, is all I need
please believe me
some instant remedy, that can cure me completely

could it be I’m suffering, because I’ll never give in
wont say that I’m falling in love
(please Please) Tell me I dont seem myself,
couldn’t I blame something else,
dont say I’m falling in love

cause I’ve been there before and it’s not enough
so nobody say it,
dont even say it
I got my eye’s shut whoa no oh no,n,no

could it be I’m suffering, because I’ll never give in
wont say that I’m falling in love
(please Please) Tell me I dont seem myself,
couldn’t I blame something else,
dont say I’m falling in love

don’t say that I’m falling in love

couldn’t I blame something else

dont say, dont say
dont say, dont say

don’t say that I’m falling in love

>>waaah.. but i am… =)

who wouldn’t fall in love with someone who:

* goes to where you are even though its far, its late, and you’ve known each other less than a month.

* takes time to just be with you even for a while. (even if you’re with the barkada)

* brightens your morning with iloveyou’s and kisses.

* completes your night with iloveyou’s and kisses with hugs and sweet dreams.

* holds your hands, and just feel the connection.

* looks at you as if he’s memorizing your face, your every move (and he does)

* makes you laugh like a lunatic

* baby’s you with words

* listens to your never-ending stories

* listens to your never-ending rants

* endures your never-ending pang-aasar with "aray’s and salamat" hehe

* finds a signal just to talk to you even if he’s outside in the middle of the night, freezing with just his boxers and shirt on (but i guess its beneficial coz he gets to smoke) hehe

* always let’s you win and get away with anything coz you’re his boss. =)

* inspires you

* makes you smile with every text message, even if it says "tae lang ako" (joke lang text na un ah.. mejo ethical naman sinasabe..)hehehe

* gives long testimonials.. (whatever)

* thinks of you while playing dota (like he can,whatever)

* talks to his friends about you

* makes you feel special

* and when he says iloveyou, you can feel your heart beat..

>>pero nde, nde ako in-love,.. ;p

>>slight lang? hehehe

friday..

started the day with a smile.. =) why? because of a new funny textmate.. (you know who you are).. hehehe=p in the afternoon, gfs texted.. kita daw sa rob! yey!!! (i really miss them) pagdating sa rob.. alang magawa.. haha pero we had fun.. punta sa holy,, met justine and corinne.. la lang.. uwi na with chesca (mine),, hatid nia ko.. senti mode sa car.. haay… =)

pagdating sa haws.. gimik with kuya and ate tricia!! we watched toto.. (shux! big fan!) and he sang my request:

Knocks me off my feet

I see us in the park strolling the summer days
Of imaginings in my head
And words from our hearts
Told only to the wind of even
Without being said

I don’t want to bore you with my troubles
But there’s something bout your love
That makes me weak and knocks me off my feet

There’s something bout your love
That makes me weak and knocks me off my feet
Oh baby said you knock me off my feet

I don’t to bore you with it
Oh But I love you I love you I love you
I don’t want to bore you with it
Oh But I love you I love you I love you

More and more
We lay beneath the stars
Under a lovers tree that’s seen
Through the eyes of my mind

I reach out for the part
Of me that lives in you baby
That only our two hearts can find

But I don’t want to bore you with
The troubles

But there’s something bout your love
That makes me weak and knocks me off my feet

There’s something bout your love
That makes me weak and knocks me off my feet
Oh baby said you knock me off my feet

I don’t to bore you with it
Oh But I love you I don’t to bore you with it
Oh But I love you I love you I love you
I don’t want to bore you with it
Oh But I love you I love you I love you

after that my very funny textmate who was drinking that time (sabe ng kilala mo na kung sino ka eh) turned out to be sweet coz’ he texted me the chorus of this song after i told him toto played it for me.. heheheh (natuwa naman ako don) then toto sat with us (oh diba) hahahaha in the next set he sang my other request:

Superstar

Long ago and oh so far away
I fell in love with you before the second show
Your guitar, it sounds so sweet and clear
But you’re not really here
It’s just the radio

(*) Don’t you remember you told me you loved me baby
You said you’d be coming back this way again baby
Baby, baby, baby, baby, oh, baby, I love you I really do

Loneliness is a such a sad affair
And I can hardly wait to be with you again
What to say to make you come again
Come back to me again
And play your sad guitar

haaay.. kaka-inlove.. heheheh and everybody was singing with the chorus.. galing talaga toto.. idol.. hehehe gotta love this night.. senti night,.. haay..

saturday..

salon day.. time to pamper my self.. went out with my best friend and best guy friend na boyfriend ng best friend ko.. nde ko naman ginulo noh.. dinner and a few laughs.. kakamiss sobra.. but i need to go home at mamumura nanaman ng lola ko.. at dumating ang parents ko.. ayun… =)

but now i’m sick.. nakajogging pants ako (lamig eh), katabi ang cellphone (katext si funny sweet textmate na humihingi ng testi at nakikipag-inuman nanaman,pag di mo pa kilala kung sino ka antanga mo na) at isang roll ng tissue (runny nose weh) at strepsils.. waaah! sign na toh, mag-aaral na ko.. tama na gimiks.,.hehehe

ayan.. my weekend.. ehehehe masaya kahit may sakit ako.. ang sad lang di ako pede mag-ice cream.. waaah! but who the hell cares! i was with the people i love most.. ;p

i miss my gfs.. i miss my friends.. and my best friend.. ;c

No woman no cry, no woman no cry
No woman no cry, no woman no cry

Say, say, said I remember when we used to sit
In a government yard in Trenchtown
Obba, obba, serving the hypocrites
As the would mingle with the good people we meet
Good friends we have, oh, good friends we’ve lost
Along the way
In this great future,
You can’t forget your past
So dry your tears, I say

No woman no cry, no woman no cry
Little darling, don’t shed no tears, no woman no cry
Say, say, said I remember when we used to sit
In the government yard in Trenchtown
And then Georgie would make the fire light
As it was, love would burn on through the night
Then we would cook cornmeal porridge
Of which I’ll share with you
My fear is my only courage
So I’ve got to push on thru
Oh, while I’m gone

Everything ’s gonna be alright, everything ’s gonna be alright
Everything ’s gonna be alright, everything ’s gonna be alright
Everything ’s gonna be alright, everything ’s gonna be alright
Everything ’s gonna be alright, everything ’s gonna be alright
So woman no cry, no, no woman no cry

>>>yeah, like hell yeah! no matter what happens everything WILL be okay.. sana.. ;p

for all those who passed by, sign na toh.. never give up.. whatever it is you’re dealing with right now..sabi nga ni ate yenne, stick to it!!

as for me, mahirap may na-mimiss, mahirap maghintay at lalong mas mahirap maging tanga.. at ang pinakamahirap eh magcommute.. nampota.. ang hirap mag-adjust oh.. i miss my friends.. bez miss na kita, miss you all, and i miss my family.. ;c

please drop by, so i know you’re still there.. love you all.. mwah!!